Friendly Loneliness...

Why do I love loneliness..?

Caz loneliness spends time with me..

It listens to me, enlightens me..

To laugh and to cry, it allows me..

Lets me be my very true self..

Lets me fly to times of all tense..

And when I'm lost.. with none with me..

Loneliness alone.. gives me company..

Then why wouldn't I love lonliness..?

Its in loneliness alone, that I find the real "me"..

Back :)

Dear all..

I am back to doha.. after a loooooong vacation.. am happy to be back!

Thanks to all of you who have kept my mail box alive with so much of love and concern.. it was really touching.. its such a nice feeling to know that u have a small group of friends who really care.. hugs to all of you.. sorry that i couldnt be in touch while i was away... will be replying the mails as soon as i get some free time..

We had planned our vacation so well but nothing worked as per our plans. we were supposed to shift to a new house but it got delayed due to some reason but everything ended well.. we were ready to come back and his dad fell sick and had to be admitted to the hospital every time we packed our bags.. since 3 yrs he is suffering from Parkinsons.. and now is showing signs of alzheimer's. Diya lost more than a months class.. but nothing is more important than a few memorable days with loved ones.. who knows next time we meet him he would remember us or not.. by gods grace we could leave seeing him smiling and not crying.. he is a gem of a person.. and a great dad..

so that was a quick synopsis of my vacation.. a vacation which was the busiest i ever had... and also the vacation where i could spend a lot of quality time with my FIL who spoke nothing at all to any but a few words to me.. and me alone.. i feel really lucky to be able to make him talk.. and just for his sake i feel i want to be back to india.. this time he is the one whom i miss...

i had a quick look at a few posts and am so eager to read them alll.... shall be back commenting..

take care...

love you all...

Sindhu

To my blog family

Hope all of you are doing great!! wanted to mail my dear ones personally but my laptop isnt working.. somehow managed to get online to write this to u all..

I will be on vacation for the next 2 months.. so wont be able to keep in touch.. but i shall try..

Kp : You and ur words are truly missed.. thanks for being in touch.. ur wishes and words are always special.. thanks a bunch.. too many stories to be read.. eager to read them all... will do it once i am free again.. for u are one writer whose imagination touches all aspects of life.. and narrates it so nicely! the characters come alive with ur narration... and we can even visualise their mannerisms.. ! will be in touch whenever i can..

Deeps : Where have u vanished!! hope you are fine.. do write back when u find some free time.. missing your lightening posts dear! come back soonnnnnnnnnn!!

Pathumma : a tight hug to u.. i just went thru ur new post.. i simply loved it.. to be frank at times i have to read it again and again to understand it.. but i love doing that caz ur poems are really addictive.. and there is magic in ur words.. i just love them.. and each time i see a new one i have a smile on my face.. they are short yet deep!.. keep writitng.. keep writing!!! ur lil stars eyes twinkle, everytime i say ur name! :) remember 1008!! that figure scares me! :)

Sana: You are always a sweet smiling person with always an optimistic view towards everything.. i love that spirit and your innocence.. .. it inspires the readers.. thanks for all those words in mine and diya's blogs.. thanks a bunch!

Shravan : to me u are a naughty kid.. :) u make me laugh but u are one who made me cry reading blogs! ur kazhukan and letters to ur sis were really so touching! there are many to mention actually :) ... one quality in u is that u always share other good blogs if u happen to find any.. thanks! the same is with pathu.. thanks to both for sharing..

Anu : You !! :) as ur blog says.. sincerely yours! .. a very sincere blog with everything seen there has a touch of sincerity.. hey the trick to attract birds is.. first decide on a special way of whisting.. i mean a speacial tune.. so that birds can identify that its u calling them.. then take some grains and whistle it and gently throw it to them when u see few birds.. they will associate food and the tune.. do it for a few times and they will come to u whenever u whistle.. dont forget to feed them each time they come!!.. they are so adorable sweet creatures.. happy whisting dear and have fun! :)

Ayesha.. a person whom i see with a motherly touch somewhere.. somewhere.. a mature religious and strong willed person.. ur posts relflect selfless love.. and sharing.. due to the busy schedules i couldnt go thru them.. will do it once back.. ur post "thy will be done".. is still in memeory.. that was a lovely one.. take

Amal.. :) i love ur sketches.. do come up with more.. and yes.. write stories that can lift the spirit of the reader too.. though the sad ending ones are more realistic.. at times try the other ones too... thanks for all the comments..

Rush: i once happened to glancce thru ur blog.. and i wanted to read more of it and spend a lil more time than i had that day.. and then it just got skipped.. i started working too so just couldnt reach u .. would love to read u once back.. take care.. hey by the way from what i read in ur blog.. ur way of writing is spontaneous and well narrated with the gestures and expressions and mood clearly described.. !

all the others, Aparna, Ridhi, Kim, harry, Sahityika.. Shridhar, princess(whats ur name dear?)! thanks a lot for even few words that u have said or atleast for just being here ... :)

take care all of you...

and stay in touch..

Lots of love n prayers and best wishes..

Sindhu

None remains forever..

Through my memory lanes, as I walked alone..

I saw, people were many... and my shadow..

Today, while I walk through the lanes of life..

I see that You are my shadow that has come alive ..

That you are with me.. makes me happy and glad..

But somewhere.. the fear of darkness makes me sad..

One day I might realize that you were just another.. I saw..

One day you might walk away, just like the rest of the crowd..

With this realization I walk .. alone through the lanes of life..

Knowing that in darkness, even my shadow will leave my hands..

Deserted...

Lost in a desert, where sorrow forms the sand..

Lonely and deserted, I'm in a no man's land..

Money and fame is what the world demands..

I'm poor, I've none of the above in my hands..

Except my own tears not a drop of water can I find..  

To show atleast a mirage in a desert, nature isnt kind..

To cry on my sorows and worry on my worries i've none..

Nature teaches me that from problems I shouldn't run..

Face it like the cactus living happpily thriving the hottest sun!

The sky belongs to day or night?....

I lay silently, gazing at the naked but pretty sky...

She was shameless, even with moonlight hung high..

Tearing her red gown she broke her marrriage vows..

Guilty she was and she stood with her head bowed..

Starry diamonds were gifted, by her lover, the night..

Adorned with them stood the sky, waiting to hug him tight..

she spent hours in love and became one with the night..

Why when in love, even wrongs seem to be right??

When day broke the doors open, the night hurriedly flew..

The sky hid those diamonds.. and left the day no clue..

She wrapped herself quickly, with cloudy blankets a few..

but day knew that something.. had turned his clear sky.. blue!!

"Why dont u run away with the mighty night?" angrily asked I..

Night can make half the world sleep, but the other half isnt blind..

Nothing's hidden forever, one dawn'll break your peace of mind..

Trying not to cheat the day, is another way of being kind..

I loved the day with all my might.. the sky gloomily replied..

I dressed for him in orange and red, yet with me he never dined

I felt he never cared for me, and my beauty, he couldnt see..

He left me all alone one moment, and fell for the deep blue sea,

Even when she roared that the one to colour her blue was me..

Thats when the magestic night came by, and in despair was he,

His world didn't share his darker side.. and lonely.. sat he..

He gave me company, for with the day, even birds left me..

Whenever I felt cold, with a black blanket he covered me,

From my nights the day was gone and I loved the night blindly..

Day said "I went to the sea not because I loved her.."

Instead from sea I wanted to bring you the brightest of pearls..

But before my pearls reached, the diamonds adorned ur curls..

I learnt if love isn't expressed on time, it can turn life absurd..

If the sky is a coin, then her faces are the day and the night..

Even kids point high and say its heaven up in the sky..

I lay silently, as I looked at the pretty and divine sky..

If falling in love is sin, then why is love said to be divine?

No wonder even being wife of two, the sky is still looked up high!

Rosy Laments..

You loved me since beginning; pretty, wasn't I?..

The symbol of romance and lovers voice, wasn't I?

But every rose is born with thorns, and so.. was I...

My beauty intoxicated the body, mind and soul.. 

I brought smile on faces, even when tears rolled..

I could unite hearts, that time threw miles apart..

I erased tears, that time would have taken years..

Time grew envious, like a witch she cursed me, 

She erased sweet memories, but kept my thorns in me.

There were days when I spread love and cheer all over,

But my thorns are all what today you remember..

Gone are the days when I was thought of as woo..

I became a symbol of foe and today am thought as a woe.

I made u laugh, I made u smile, I made romance alive ..

A thorn poked, u threw me away, Now a dead flower am I.

Gone is my beauty, gone is my color,Still once a Red Rose, I was,

Call me a rose for stil am a rose, Alas! now am known more as thorns!